Chapter 20

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Previously in Chapter 19:




Shahad: "Mesharii laish mo ga3id etrid 3alay!"





I heard car noises, we were at the street now....



Suddenly the guy behind me spoke...




..............: "L2ani mo Mesharii!!!"




My heart started to hammer against my chest...
I felt my legs jerk, i was surprised.
I was really scared and confused and mixed up, but mostly i was terified.


His words kept repeating in my brain...



"L2ani mo Mesharii!!!"


"L2ani mo Mesharii!!!"


"L2ani mo Mesharii!!!"


"L2ani mo Mesharii!!!"

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Mesharii's point of view....







Yara: "Wainha hathi yallah basha'3il il film!"
Mesharii: "Mo china Shahad 6awelat wayed...?!"
Yousef: "Il7een tiyey!"
Fahad: "Maynoona akeed ga3da 3ind il ba7ar, 5ibla il i5t!!"
Yara: "Eeee offff r7 aroo7 anadeeha!"
Yousef: "La gi3day, ana r7 aroo7 ashoofha!"
Mesharii: "Wala wa7d feekom yroo7, hathi mortii w ana r7 aroo7, encha3maw w gi3daw!"
Yousef: "Tara athatna, mortii w mortii, roo7 roo7!!"
Mesharii: "Chub Yousef a7salik!"


I left them and went outside to look for Shahad...
She took a really long time, i don't know what took her so long, she only went to get her jacket.
I walked to the sea and looked to her, but she was nowhere to be found. My heart started to beat faster, i began to run around the place, i kept my eyes wide open.



Mesharii: "SHAHAD!!!!" I yelled out her name.



I shifted my eyes around the place, there was no one there, she was nowhere to be found. I then decided to look around the whole place. I kept jogging around and looking for her, i felt like someone just stopped my heart from pumping blood, i was really scared, i couldn't feel my legs. I then spotted something black on the floor. I quickly ran towards it. It was Shahad's jacket, but it wasn't near the sea it was near the road. Shahad left her jacket near the sea, not near the roads. How did it get here? Akeed 9ar feeha shay! I bent down and held the jacket, I looked around but there was no one, I pulled the jacket to my chest and hugged it while smelling it. I then got up, my tears were trapped in my eyes, i walked around still hoping to find Shahad. I kept looking at the floor, looking for the footsteps she left in the sand and following them. I then spotted something small left on the sand, i ran to find an iphone, i pressed on the home button to see the lock screen picture, it was Shahad's picture. Her beautiful smile made the screen brighter, I just wanted to see her infront of me, I wanted to hug her to my chest, I wanted to see her eyes sparkle, I wanted to feel her breath against my cheek, I wanted to feel her warm hands, I wanted her, all of her, I just wanted her, only her.


I kissed the iphone's screen and pulled the iphone to my chest. I sat there holding the iphone to my chest. I then gathered myself and got up and went to the shaleh, I had to tell the guys.
I ran into the shaleh...



Mesharii: "MO GA3D ALAGIHA MADRE WAINHA, MADRE, MO GA3D ALAGEEHA, SHAHAD MO MAWJOODA, MADRE WAINHA!"
Yara: "SHINO GA3D ETGOOL ENT MAYNOON!!"
Mesharii: "R7T 3AL BA7AR W DAWART'HA, LEGAT IL IPHONE MALHA 3AL ARTH W HER JACKET BA3AD, BS KAN 3IND IL SHAR3, YA3NI AKEED 9AR FEEHA SHAY!!"
Fahad: "SHINO?????!!!!!! WAIN RA7AT YA3NII?!"
Yousef: "GOOMAW 5AL INDAWERHA, YARA 5ALICH BIL SHALEH YMKIN ETRID AW SHAY!" Yara began to cry.
Fahad: "Yara la tabcheen r7 enlageeha!"
Mesharii: "EMSHAW SHABAB, YALLAH!!!"




We rode my car and i drove, we searched every single place around the shaleh, she was nowhere to be found, it was dark outside, I looked at the time, it was 9pm. Where could she be? What happened to her? I should of went out with her, I shouldn't of left her alone, it's all my fault, if i went with her nothing of this would of happened!!!
We searched and searched and searched, she was nowhere to be found.
China il arth inshagat w bla3at'ha. Wanich ya Shahad, wanich??!!



We kept looking till 6am, i didn't stop looking, we went to every single shaleh that was close to us, but she was nowhere to be found. She couldn't have possibly went far, she had to be somewhere around here, i have to find her, i have to!!!



My mind would stop thinking of Shahad, I was lost in my thoughts about Shahad, Fahad and Yousef slept but I didn't even feel sleepy, I kept driving and looking for her, I wanted MY SHAHAD, I kept imagining her in front of me, her brown shinny eyes, her beautiful long cinnamon hair, her white soft skin, her tinny fingers that i admired, her dimple, everything about her made me crazy about her. I needed her next to me, I needed her so badly.
I remembered some of the things that happened between us.
The first day i saw her when she was eating the Aero in her car and singing, she looked really funny.
The day i bumped her car and she got really angry, i loved it when she got angry, she looked so cute.
The day i kept waiting for her near her car with the flowers and without notice I slept.
The day i went to her university and called her name and wrote on the board that I loved her.
When i hugged her for the first time, how i almost broke her bones, how i squashed her between my arms.
The night she became my wife, when we went to the restaurant.
The first time she kissed me when we were sitting on the beach, how her soft lips touched mine, how i wanted more of that, how it gave me passion.
The way she threw her high heel with spikes at me, when i put my lollipop in her mouth.
And when we played catchers in the dark, how she whispered in my ears, and how i hugged her.
The way i made her nervous when i was around, how her face went red and how her eyes shone and how the smell of her hair and her perfume made me feel alive.
When i fought with Yousef and she came and slept on my chest near the sea, the way she smiles, her laugh, her eyes, her moves, her touches.
I yearn for her, I ache for her, I long for her, I pine for her, I want her...



I feel so depressed, so sad, so mad, so angry, so awful that she isn't next to me, comforting me, hugging me, smiling at me, staring into my eyes. I felt like a child that just lost his mother, i felt so lost without Shahad, please come back Shahad, I am lost without you, you are everything Shahad, don't leave me, I am empty without you, I am blank, I am like a white page without any words, I am like a hand without its fingers, like a heart without beats, i'm incomplete, i'm useless without you, simply lost, lost in this world, i feel like i fell in this hole, this deep hole, your the only one that can get me out of this whole. Shahad come back, i need you next to me, I need you, I need you, I need you.

A tear fell down my face, i used the back of my hand to whip it off. I was a man, never in my life did a women let a tear fall down my face, except Shahad, she was the only one.

I kept driving and thinking of Shahad, I kept looking, but the voice in me wouldn't shut up i kept talking to myself in my brain, i kept thinking of SHAHAD SHAHAD SHAHAD! NOTHING BUT SHAHAD!


A deep and heavy, unsoothable pain is covering me. I want to crawl in a ball and hide from this world. I feel utterly terrible, there is a huge whole in my heart and with every second that whole is getting bigger and bigger, it can only be filled and closed by my one and only love, Shahad. I crave holding her hand so terribly, and just to be in her presence and look into her eyes.


I held her phone and looked at her phone...


Mesharii: "A55555555 ya Shahad law tadreen ana ishkither mistaglich!!" I talked to the photo of her, as if she could hear me.



I then unlocked her phone and looked at the photos album.

I decided not to open it cause maybe she had photos of girls that didn't have their scarfs on...
My attention was pulled to a new message that hasn't been seen, i decided to open it.
I pressed on the messages and went it.
It opened to a unknow number message, i read the words written:



"Warach warach w ilziman 6aweeel ya Shosho, Hahahaha 3abalich milachtay ya3ni 5ala9 ma r7 tismi3een mini, hahahaha, bil mishmish ya 7ilo!"





OSAMA!!!
Osama, it had to be Osama, akeed Osama, this message has to be from him and he is the one that kidnapped Shahad, he did this, he is the one who took Shahad away from me. He is the one who took my soul away, my heart away, he took a piece of me, a part of me.
I was about to explode, i felt like killing Osama, i wanted Shahad back, i wanted my wife back, my life back, my best friend back, my love back, my sister back, my mother back.
I clutched my hand on the steering wheel trying to control my angerness, i was trying to control myself, i put my hand throught my hair trying to calm myself, i then took a deep breath and let it out. I dialed the number that was from the message in my phone and called the number...
My heart kept beating faster, i was worried...






Deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet.....



Deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet.....



Deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet.....



Deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet.....




NO ANSWER....
I called again and again and again...
NO ANSWER....



Offffffff 5al a7awel ba3ad mara....




Deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet...


Deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet...


Deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet...


Deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet...


Suddenly someone answered....



Mesharii: "ALOOO!!!"

I heard Shahad's voice, she was crying...

Osama: "MINO?!"
Mesharii: "ENT MA3AK SHAHAD W HATHI MORTII, ANA R7 A3LMIK YA CHALB!"
Osama: "HEY, HEY, ENT MINO U9LAN?!"
Mesharii: "ANA MESHARII!"
Osama: "ENT MESHARII, HAHAHAHA, ENJOY LOOKING FOR SHAHAD!!" He laughed.


I heard Shahad cry louder.


Mesharii :"3A6ENI SHAHAD IL7EEN, ABII MORTII YA 7AYWAN, YA 7AQEER, YA CHALB!"
Osama: "HAHAHAHA, RA7T 3ALAIK 7ABIBII!"
Mesharii: "SHINO TABI, TABI FLOOS, TABI THAHAB, SHINO TABII???!!"
Osama: "ABII SHAHAD!!!"
Mesharii: "YA 7AYWAAN YA WA9I5, WALLAH IL 3ATHEM R7 TINDAM 3AL YOUM ILY 5ATHAT'HA FEE, ANA A3LMIK MINO MESHARI AL X YA JABAN! LAW RAYAL TIYEY ETWAJEHNI RAYAL W RAYAL MO MET5ABI WARA TALIPHONE!!"
Osama: "SHAYFNII 5ABAL, ANA RAYAL '3A9BAN 3ANIK W 3AN ILY 5ALIFOOK!"
Mesharii: "LAW RAYAL TIYEY ILYOUM IL SHALEH, W NITFAHM EHNAK!"
Osama: "BIL MISHMISH YA 7ILO, ENJOY LOOKING FOR HER, HAHAHAHAHA, BYE!"
Mesharii: "3A6ENI SHAHAD, 3A6ENI MORTII, WALLAH A3ALMIK, 3A6ENIYAHA, YA 7AYWAN, YA 7AQEER!!!"


He closed the phone in my face, the whole call i could hear Shahad crying and screaming and calling my name.
What should i do?!
How can i get my only love back?
What do i do?


I needed her so bad, i wanted to kill Osama, i clutched harder on the steering wheel.


Mesharii: "SSSSSHHHHAAAAAAHHHHHHAAAAAADDDDDD!!!!!"

I yelled with all my strength, I wanted her, I couldn't stand anymore, I was so mad, so angry, so frustrated. From the loudness of my voice Fahad and Yousef woke up.


I hit the steering wheel with my fist more than once and i yelled harder.


Mesharii: "WALLAH LA A3LMIK YA OSAMA AL X, YA 7AQEER, YA NATHIL, YA JABAN, YA WA6II!! MA AKOON MESHARII EN MA 3ALAMTIK ZAIN!!!"