STOP!!! CLICK ON ME - Lost In The Middle Of Nowhere

This is something I wrote and I would love to share with you guys, please read every word and understand every sentence.
I hope you enjoy it....



IMPORTANT:

INSTRUCTIONS...
READ THIS WHILE YOU LISTEN TO  ( Chris Brown - Say Goodbye ) and you have to be alone, and make sure it's quiet around you. Believe me you will enjoy it more this way.


DON'T READ IT WITHOUT DOING WHAT I JUST SAID!!!!











You know that feeling of being lost?


Not knowing what to do?


Who to listen to?


Which way to walk in?


Which direction to take?


Not knowing what is the right thing to do?




That confused, lonely, lost mixed up feeling when everything is messed up. You feel like nothing is right, like your mind is constantly empty, you lose track of where to go, whom to ask, what to do.




That feeling of missing someone so badly, missing all their words, their laughs, their smiles, their words. Remembering all what happened and wanting it back badly, wanting to go back, wanting to press the replay button. It hurts to turn around and not find them standing there, telling you that everything will be okay, not finding that person with the warmest hug, the cosiest hug, the safest hug. It shatters your heart how they aren't here anymore to listen to every word you say, to wipe every tear, and smile at every laugh. How they aren't here to help you anymore. And that they were the only people that understood every single word you said even when you made no sense. It's painful to turn around and not find that shoulder to cry on anymore, those arms that made you feel safe, those hands that wiped your tears away, those jokes that made you laugh, those smiles that brightened your day up, that voice that made you melt from inside slowly. To turn around and not find them is the hardest thing to survive without.




You know when you miss someone so badly that it hurts, and you try to get them back but there is no use, you try and you put all your strength in bringing them back to you but there isn't any use. You feel weak, you need the power they gave you, you need their laugh, their smile, and their words so your day can go on. You try and try and try but end up with that awful word that everyone hates to hear "Nothing ". It's like it's too late, they are already out of your life, as if they disappeared, vanished into thin air, unavailable anymore.


 

All that's left is the memories, those memories you cherish, those memories you beg for to come back.




And after that, when you know there is no hope anymore in them coming back, you can't sleep at night, you can't eat well, you can't stop thinking of them.
Are they okay? Are they sad? Are they happy? Are they crying? Are they laughing? Endless questions twirling in your head about them.
It's like they are drugs, so addicting, so irresistible. They give you passion, they inspire you, they motivate you, but now, without them around, it's like nothing else matters anymore.




You never wished of letting go, never wished letting that person exit your life.




The feeling of being lost, broken hearted, unable to do anything, as if you fell deep down in a hole and there isn't anybody around to rescue you, to help you, to tell you what to do.




The really painful feeling that breaks your heart into pieces, it smashes your heart into bits, it shatters you. Love hurts, it rips your heart out. And in the end, you end up starting all over again, going back to where you were, that lame, old, same routine you had, with nothing to wake up in the morning and look forward to, no more goals, no more aims, no more trust, no more of that drug you need, that drug you're addicted to.




It's like you silently scream to yourself. You cry yourself to sleep every single night, dying slowly day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute, second by second. Like nothing matters anymore.




The memories you wanted back start to feel like nothing but a story you continually tell yourself. Like a life that was never really yours, but someone else's....





You're lost in the middle of nowhere....